Posted: Tue Jan 22, 2008 2:26 am Post subject: what iv done(short story)
Im 21 living a all big and bad life well thats with i thought to my perfection
iv been merried 3 years to this guy name chezz(short) he is in a band called Lp i never thought i was gonna be with him i was one of them hip hop chicks popin her ass every night but when i got with him i changed i still dance i still party just worse it fun when im with him but my friends they think im nuts hood chick who ant even black with rocker guy or dud how every they say it i just pushed them off but ima start from the start of it
Intro
Im nina im 18 and i was wroking at a bar my girls were dancers and i was a bartinder i see almost every big on the top person that comes in here so right now i was working my shift i was mixing a dring when i looked up i seen two of the band members from Lp and they smiled at me and i heald up my pointer finger meaning 1 sec then i gave jim his drink
jim:come on nina i know u want this ima be here till u give in
me:go away
jim:ill be back
i walked to the front of the bar station and grabed my note pad and my pin from behing my ear
me:can i help yall
m1:i want the best drink u can make
me: (just writing down mix drink)and u
m2:somthing strong and good
me:ok
so i mad them their drinks and then i give it to them and then i looked at my watch and it was my break time i closed the bar and hoped on the table and joined nikka dancing i spoted them two guys eyes on me and i smiled then jim came and it wa just time for me to go back to working so i got down and set up again and jim walked over with my ex ben
ben:hey baby
me:didnt i say stay away from me
ben:come on nina u know u want me back home
i pushed the butten for my boss to come and he took ben and jim out
m2:look like u havin a pretty bad time
me:it happens every day
m2:im chezz and from the sounds of it im guessing your nina
me:yeah i am so far
chezz:so when your not working
me:from 5 to 9
chezz:maybe we can hing i mean im not trying to come on fast but i can show u a pretty wild time
me:sure here my number just call when u have a day in mind(giving him my numbers)
nikka:nina can u get me
i gave her the druink i mad for me and she siped it
me:u ok
nikka:no im tired ima bout to leave early can u fill for me
me:yeah cus ammy here
so i switched with nikka and she left as i was dancing then i felt a hand on my waist but the person was not too close so i know it was not jim or ben then i turned and seen chezz we were dancing and then he stoped cus he was about to go so i packed up and walked out with him and he walked me to my car
me:ok bye sweet guy
he smiled
chezz:see u soon
so i left and he got on he tour bus when i got home i smiled and then got washed up and went to bed the next day i was at the mall with nikka ammy shay and kim
ammy:i seen u with that rocker dud
me:so
kim:do u know what that will do to your rep
me:nuthing it not like im datin him im just havin fun
shay:speackin of rocker dud here come 5 of them
i looked and seen chezz and some of the other
chezz:hey nina ladies
girls:un huh
me:forget them whats popin
chezz:nuthin much just comming by to sign auto's
me:can i be first
he smiled and gave me a paper that said i know u was gonna ask so here u go with his number on the bottom
me:i see
chezz:but hey haow about we hing after the signing
nikka:no she gitting her uhh(thinking)hair done
me:nikka stop
he laughed some
me:sure im free today
shay:but hey u know yo sister is sick
me:what sister
chezz:ima just head out im not wanted here
so he left and i looked at them and got up
kim:please dont go
i just slamed the chair back when they did pack up i went home changed and he met me there i got up opened the door and he game in in a wife beater and some layback pants
me:should i undress some
chezz:maybe we going chill at the spot it gonna be fun
me:ok
so i put on some layback chick pants with a half top showing my belly butten and back tatto and he smiled a lil
chezz:u wanna let yo hair down
me:yeah
so i did and he gave me the thumbs up and we got in his car and went to the spot and ti was jumpin i seen rockers evey where and he was just telling me to chill out so i walked in and seen some girls dancing and then chezz joined them then i did and i got the hing of it it was fun then we got drunk and partyed harder i was out when they left i layed on the sofa when i woke up i was in a bed and chezz was on the sofa i sat up and he looked at me
chezz:had fun
me:hell yeah that was the best party iv ever been to
chezz:well maybe u can come a nother time
me:ok cool but would u mind taking me home
chezz:not at all come on
so he did and i stood at the door and i smiled
me:so.. i guess ima head in
chezz:see u soon
so he kissed my hand and then my cheack and we stoped and then he leand in for my lips and the nikka open the door and we jumbed back
nikka:were u been
me:ill see u later chezz
he left and i went in
nikka:u was about to kiss him eww and then u stayed out passed night dont tell me u fucked him
me:look im not in the mood i have an hing over i got to worrk tonight and im not letting your soil my fun ok
so i went back to sleep when i got to work i just got to working i did not speack to the girls i was pissed then when chezz came in i seen kim talking too him and he looked mad and he turned out and went to the bottom room and i sat back and then i walked outand they seen me when i got to the bottom flore i seen him and i walked to him
me:hey thank u for this morning
chezz:un huh
me:whats wrong
chezz:if u was not interested in me why u did not tell me earlyer
me:i am
chezz:it cus i rock and not pop or w/e yall do _________________ My New BABY
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me:look w/e kim told u is not true ok im more interested in u then iv ever been in any one
i heard mik callin him
chezz:i got to go
he walking off an i felt a tear slide down and he seen it i turned and went back up i clocked out and got my things and went home when i got in i droped my stuff i seen nikka there cus she was off i layed my head in my lap after gitting on the sofa and started crying
nikka:u ok
me:no he hates me
nikka:i told u hes no good
me:kim told him somthing
nikka:it ok it ok dont cry it ok
me:it not ok i actualy started to like some one i felt safe and she told him somthing
she just held me then there was a knok on the door and i seen him walk in and nikka went in her room
me:im sorry for what kim said
chezz:no im sorry i did not listen to u i did not know u really cared this much only 2 almost 3 days
me:i know
chezz:come on get changed were gonna go party
so i did and we both got ready to leave and nikka rolled her eyes and he just walked out holdin my hand when we got to this club it was so big me and him just hung out and once again we danced all night and got drunk when i did get home he was so drunk he had to stay so he stayed with me i just let him stay so he layed down and i got in the showere and then got changed and layed down with him and then i seen nikka come in and she just turnd back a round mought droped i just layed my head on his chess i was trying to subber up more cus i was nto for an hing over the next day came and i was on my side and he had his arm around me and i streached and he turned over and i heard the girls talkin and i was like o hell no nikka dont have them here so i got changed and we walked to the front and he went with me in the kicten
me:u hungry
chezz:yea
so i fixed food and we went out back and ate
me:so u had fun last night
chezz:if i could remember i probly would say yeah but your the first girl here to let me stay with her the 3 night we knew each other
i smilled
me:well it was odd cus were not datin
chezz:but i do remember us kissing
i smiled
me:i dont remember how it felt i was drunk
he leaned in and as soon as we got closes
ammy:nina were the chicken we gonna BBQ
me:look it in the deep freezer
she went back in and i sighed
chezz:why that hate me so much
me:i dont know they just mean
chezz:so i got to go i have a tour comming up and ima be gone for a while
me:oh(looking down)
he rised my face up
chezz:it gonna be ok(kissing me)
in side
nikka:wtf they kissing
ammy:stop them do somthing
shay:im tired of this shes happy
out side
me:wow
he smiled and got up o took the plats in and then we went to the door and i let him leave and i just went to my room and got changed and then i sat around and watched tv when i got a call i got up and picked it up
me:hello
chezz:u wanna come with me on my tour
me:sure but i got to work
chezz:i can fix that
me:how long
chezz:a month maybe 2
me:i can deal with that
so i got some clothes and my other things packed
nikka:were u going
me:with chezz
she nodded
nikka:u just gonna move in with him
me:no it a tour
nikka:sure
me:why yall hate him is it cause im happy
nikka:no hes not like us he cant be around u
me:too bad nikka
so i went and put my tings in the tour bus when he got there
chezz:thats it
me:yep
so they did the trip i started to date him we got closer and when the tour was over we went partying and i could say i had more fun then ever and out of no were me and chezz made out and then went all the way drunk and i remember felling it when i woke up we was on the wy home i got dressed and my things was packed so we got off and he went in with me and nikka just shook her head and then i seen ammy lil girl on the floor watching tv i had put my tings up and then we both got on the sofa and i layed my head on him
shay:were u been
me:partying
shay:well we tryed to get u somthing for you but u was gone
me:i know
chezz:hey baby i got to go un pack back at my place ill talk to u later
he left
ammy:baby? yall datin
me:yep
nikka:u better not give him some
me:too late
nikka:ugh your a turnoff to the group i swear _________________ My New BABY
i was working and cleaning the bar untile i see chezz come up and nikka and the girls just walked away from us
me:so whats going on
chezz:i want u to come down stairs with me
me:ok hold on let me clock out
so i did and we went down stairs and i know they had to follow me so when i did got down they were playing some of their songs and other so i just stayed with him
chezz:i got somthing to give u
me:what
chezz:here(pulling out a ring as my mought droped)will u merry me nina
me:o(cover my mought with tears comming down and nodding)yes
he hugged me and he slid it on my finger and kissed me
chezz:im so happy now
me:im always happy with u
so we danced and had fun talkin when i got home i seen nikka and amy on the sofa and kim and shay leaning on the walls
me:hey
nikka:how could u
me:do wat
nikka:accept his marrage
i stoped her
me:it my fuckin life im living it not u are any for yall im happy every day im with him ok and with every one eals i was nver this happy
nikka:thats just a sign of when he hurt yo ass ur gonna be depressed even worse
me:nikka fuck u ok
nikka:w/e
i went in my room and i started looking for an house and when i fould the perfact one it was around 5 am so i wrote the number down and then i went to bed when i woke up i heard my cell going off
me:hello
chezz:hey
me:whats up
chezz:siting here missing u
me:hmm well i just found a new houses im about to get
chezz:i can help pay for it
me:i have enugh for it
chezz:so im moving in with u soon
me:fine u can help then
then there was a knock on my bed room door
me:ugh why want they leave me along
i open the door and it was chezz
chezz:so i guess ill go home then cus i want leave u along
me:come on
so he came in and i locke my room door and i showed him the house i wanted
chezz:thats a nice place
me:ima call now since its 12 somthing
so i called and he sat down and i sat on his lap
sales man:hello
me:hey im nina smith i was interested in one of your homes u have for sale
sg:ok well come stop by the offices to day(giving me the place)
me:ok ill be there
so i hung up
me:im about to take a shower can u hold on untile then
chezz:no ima get in with u
me:ok
so i got in and then he did and he washed with me and i would say i got out but no not that quick cus then we started kising and then one thing after another then we got dressed and left when we got there we went in the offices and then sat down
sg:ok so your ready to go check out the place
me:yeah
so we went and looked around and it was even better
me:i want it
chezz:me too
sg:ok lets go back to the place and get some papers signed
so we did and then it been another month and i was in the houses painting the walls and then chezz came in
chezz: looking good
me:im almost done
chezz:thats good then we can move the rest of the things in
me:i know oww i finished the kicten every things un packed and then the guest rooms are too so is ours then the bathrooms are all done except the one here
chezz:ok let me call the boys so we can get some more things put in
me:ok
so when we got done and finished it was 4 weeks later rightn now me and chezz was watching tv
me:i love this place
chezz:i know and another thing is 2 more monthes befor we get merried
me:i know and we got every thing plan all ready too so we can lay back and relax until then
soon i went to sleep when i woke up it was the next day the clock had 5 and i know chezz was down stairs in the studio so i just got in the showere and then i got dressed and went down and seen them all down just hinging out so i went back up and then i fiex every one somthing to eat and then i went down and sat in the chair that was by chezz
mike:somthign smell good
me:i cooked
he got up and went up stairs and mike laughed
mike:he been waiting for somthing to eat
me:there is enugh for yall too
mike:ok thank u
so i went up and then they did and chezz was eating while playing the game
me:i wanna play too
so i started to play too and they were chearing for who they wanted to win and i di and i stood up
o yeah i win whos next
chezz:rematch
me:ok fine
so i won again
me:ok now whos next
mike:me
so we all played the game and it was so funny cus i beat him but no one eals
chezz:yeaa im just savin them for our wedding night
mike:u going to far
chezz gave me a look and i smiled
me:ok leave my baby along
chezz:i thougth so
that night
i was in the room gitting under the covers when i felt sick i got up and ran in the bahtrrom where chezz was shaving and he seen me throwin up and he came and rubbed my back then i fushed the torlit and brished my teeth and mad sure i was ok and he looked at me
chezz:u ok
me:yeah i think
chezz:u know what that mean huh
me:no
chezz:you might be carrying
my eyes got big and i sat on the set in there as tears came down my face
chezz:why your crying it ok
me:i fell bad for it it too early chezz i dont think im ready for a kid and i dont want to fuck up any thing going on with your job
he stoped me
chezz:it ok nothings gonna go wrong ok
me:ok
chezz:im more then happe but we dont know yet we will go see tommrow
so i went to bed the next day we got ready and went to go see and they said i was not i was sick so i went home and i layed down and he layed down next to me
chezz:u ok
me:yeah(crying but trying not to let him see)
chezz:come on dont cry
me:im not crying
chezz:baby come on it gonna be ok there other times your have a kid
me:can we go out some where
chezz:sure anywhere u like
so we went to a club and tryed to have fun i ended up drunk and soon he did and we started to party harder and then a fight brok loose and thats all i remember seeing when woke up i was in bed i heald my head
me:ahh
chezz:u ok
me:no
chezz:my head hurt to what happen last inght
me:i dont know but i know ima cut down on drinking
chezz:oww i remember what i was suppost to ask u how would u feel if u was to be here with out me for a while
me:i dont know why a tour
chezz:yeah
me:ill be ok bord but ok
chezz it a year one this time
me:well are we gitting married or not
chezz:we are but then we got 1 day to spent to gether and then ima have to cut short cus we leave
he jsut sighed and walked out and then i head mike talking so iw ent down and they were playing games and drinking i just sat down and watched soon chezz was layed out on the sofa singing i was laughing cus it was funny and mike was just rappin away
me:im going to get ready for work
chezz:nope
me:yep
chezz:u dont need to work
me:yeas i do
chezz:u can work for our manager
me:ill see
chezz:come on ill take u
me:no ill drive
so i drove there and i ended up working in videos not theirs but others my fist one was in japan for some guys but i did not care
wedding day
i was freaking out crying in the back iw as walking in and out the room and i oculd nto see chezz at all and it mad em more sceard when it was tiem to go out iw as drunk on the couch cus i was out of it and they came and seen me and said he was kinda drunk i swear we tink alike so when i went out he stood tall and i tryed to focus my words were not slering and i was ok but when we got in the limo i grabed bag and let it all otu when i did strighten up he was laughign at me
me:ok partytime
chezz:u cant drink it badd enugh u got drunk druing the important part
me:sorry i was sceard
chezz:no rinks
i just sighed and layed my head back but it did not last long cus we mad out in the limo when i got changed in my lay back panths so did he and i had on a half top and my hair was down and curly and he had his in a mohock(sp) and we all sat down and i took a dring and siped it and got almost half but then chezz took it and finished it and i pouted
me:why u get to drink
chezz:i was not drunk
me:u was and u know it
chezz:no drinks ok
me:fine im going home
i got up and then walked to the door and walked out and so did he
me:what u want
chezz:come back in dont miss up the fun
me:what fun
chezz:i dont want u to be drunk tonight
me:w/e(not looking at him)
chezZ:(kissing my far head)come on nina u know u cant miss out on this
me:well i am yall have fune get drunk have a party
chezz:look this night is the night we sould remember fo all times dont walk out on me like this now
me:fine
so we went back in and danced some but closed up together he was holding me and every body tryed to get us to go and dance with them i just ignored thim i was happy in his arms and nothing felt better i kissed him and that whol night thats what we did was danced when i went home we kinda made love and called it a day it been a year now and it was our annuvisitry(sp) i was gitting dress he was abotu to be comming home on a tour i had food cooked i had mon my black layback panths and a red half top i had a candle lit at the table and i waited for him to come hours went by and then i blow thime out and throught the food away i then went to bed and i hear dht door open and felt him get in bed and i could smell that he was drunk i just kept looking out the window and the next day ig to up and wen in the kicten anc cleaned it up i washed the dishes and the throught the food out when he came down i was taking the candles
chezz:what the candles for
me:NOTHING THEY WHERE JUST HER FOR NO REASON WHAT U THIGN THEY WHERE HERE FOR CHEZZ I WAS WAITING FOR YO ASS TO COME HOME LAST NIGHT I COOKED AND EVERY THING FOR U AND U COME HOME 3 IN THE MORNING I FELT USED AND OUT THERE AND U FOR GIT THE ONE MOST IMPORTANT DAY IN OUR LIVES(crying)I HATE U
chezz:im sorry
me:go where ever the hell u was last night i dont want to hear it(crying)im leaving i hope u would jsut see how uv changed
i ran out and grabed my keys and got in my car and pulled out and went to my brothers house
me:tray can i stay her
tray:why so u can bitch more about how im a slob
me:im sorry ok look im going through a problem not
tray:come on
i walked in and seen my ex ben on the sofa i looked at him
ben:well well well if it isnt my baby nina
me:why your here ben
tray:hes my friend dah u wanted to date him
im going int he room
i did and i locked the door my cell went off 5 times that day and it was all from chazz the mike called
me:hello
mike:why your not answering chezz calls
me:why should i
mike:cus he loves u
me:love me are u kidding he stood me up ont he most important day of our lives well at least i know mines he is nothing but shit
mike:look it our falt we told hime to get drunk and loosin up a little cus he was nurves ok so we took him out things got out hand and he ended up ovr his head and if that dose not make things better then jsut know u should hate us and not him hes really upset at us for it
me:i dont believe u ok he had a mind he should of called or somthing in stead of making me stay up all night waiting for him i had this plan for us and i stayed up crying and then he comes home at 3 in the fucking morning
mike:im sorry ok please just come over
i just sighed and said i would i left tray house and went to mike house and seen chess car i wiped my face some and i walked to the door hand knocked on it and chezz opend it and i looked at him and he hugged me while i started crying and i hugged him back
chezz:im sorry i did not mean to
i just nodded and then we got in the car and he droved when we got home i seen he had a puppy running a round i looked at it and seen how cute it was
me:she so cute
chezz:it was mines but i decited to bring it here and give her to u
me:thank u
he kissed me
the next day i woke up and seen jamie sleepin on chezz and he pet her and then moved her off him and turn and see n me up
chezz:your not along any more when i go on tours but u know i got to go back today
me:(sigh)i know(i turned over)
chezz(gitting close to me)it ok ima be home soon
me:soon dont help chezz your gone all the time u was gone untile our yeaterday and now your back off
he just kissed me and got over me then the dog jumped on him and moved him over and i laughed
chezz:damn dog
i got up and i went in the kicten while chezz got in the showere i started to cry i could not take him leaving i was so happy he was comming home and what happen he has to go back when he got doen he came in and seen me looking out side crying and he grabed my waist and kissed my neck and i felt his hand travling around my body i just looked out the window hating he had to leave and then he turned me and kissed my lips and i clossed my eyes and then he kissed my far head and looked at me
chezz:stop crying
then i hard a hunk and mik came in and got his bags and more tears pored down my face hardder and he hugged me
chezz:i got to go
me:i dont want i i love u too much to only see u one day and u go like this this is not how this are suppost to be your suppost to be here hore then one 2 days i cry almost every day u where gone
he just looked at me and nodded and got ready to go when he went to the door i knocked all the glass things off the table and he walked back in and seen me on the floor crying and he told mike and them to hold on then he came back in and took me to my room and layed me in there and started to sing in my ear when mike came in i then dosed off and he got up and got his other bags and left when i woke up i went to the window and it was dark i seent he door eating her food and then i went to clean the glass up and then i went turned on the hot water in the tube and then i heard the phone ring it read chezz
me:hello(walking in the bathroom)
chezz:hey
me:hey
chezz:so what u doing
me:abotu to take a bath
chezz:mind if i watch
me:what u talking about
i heard the door open and he wald in and i hugged him
me:why your back early(closing the phone)
chezz:cus it was called off
me:thats good
i kissed him and he throught me int he tub and he fell in with em and i laughed and he turned the water off and we started kissing
chezz:i dont think iv ever been in a tub with clothes on before
me:me neather
he smilled and kissed me some more
4 months later
iv been rally sick now it gottin worse iv been trying to tel chezz but he then left on another tour but i seriously think im carrying i mean we been at it acupple times but never protcted i think only once but then it was takin off pretty wild so i decited to go to the dr and get check and he told me to come back later when i went home i got me somthing to drink but then ran and puked it up i just tryed to lay off food i did gained waight but no a lot and when i did send chess a pic he said i did but it thought it was nuthign 4 days went by and i got papars in the mail i was 3 months pregnet going on 4 i just covred my face and started crying then i called chezz
chezz:hello u have reached chezz sorry but im partying now talk later
beep
me:i need to talk to u call me back quick
when i did get a call back he was back stage
chezz:what do u want im back stage about to go on
me:im 4 and a half months pregnet but i guess you dont care cus your fucking back stage
chezz:your lieing right
me:no
he just hung up i i started crying i tossed my phone at the wall and then i geabbed my knees 3 hours late ri got a call and i heard music
me:hello
chezz:ok now we can talk
me:about what chezz(crying)if u dont want me then tell me now so i can packa and go
chezZ:look i was back stage ok i did not need to be shocked so what did the dr say the where
me:they did not tell me
chezz:when were on our way home now cus today was our last day ill see u later tonight or early in the morning
me:ok
when he did get hime i was sleep and the doog was ouner me and he got in and held me and i felt him rubb my stumach and he kissed me and i tuched his face
me:hey baby
chezz:hey my baby who is now a mother
me:iv missed u
chezz:i know thats why u carrying that now
me:i know
he just turned over and i turned the other way and we both went to sleep when i woke up i took a shower and then he came in and got in and closed the door and we started kissing
me:u need to stay home
when we got out we got dressed and then i went in the kicten and then i pulled out a cup and then started to make some tea and then i started to cook then chezz came and he grabed my waist
shezz:u jsut love to cook dont u
me:more then u know
he kissed my cheek
chezz:im going in to the studio later today u wanna come
i was holding lil chezz i while he was eating his cake for his birthday and it was just me and chezz was on tour and not to lie i was cheating on him i could not stop but i had the felling of lonely niss and he was here with us his name is jay he was cute right now he was sitting down with me and lil chezz he know i was datin him but he was trying to get me to live him and as soon as i kissed him the door open and i looked and my eyes got big it was him i looked at him and the baby ran to him and i walked up and he just looked at me with disgust
me:um chezz
he heald his hand up and picked up lil chezz and walked out i ran after him while joe left
me:im so sorry
chezz:hey baby boy happy birth day
he smiled i sat next to chezz and he just scooted over
me:please talk to me chezz
chezz:oh fine then get out go some where why dont u go with him
me:im sorry ok chezz
chezz:no the hell your not why would u cheat on me huh
me:cus i was lonely
he stood up and started yelling and i flinched
chezz:why u jumpin huh
me:look im sorry(crying) i was lonely i needed some one to be there
chezz:i was there for u
me:but i needed u here with me to hold me every night i know i was wong but chezz i need some one therefor me and not only me your son
he sighed and sat down i tryed to tuch him but he pushed me back and lil chezz started crying louder then he was from chess yelling
me:(picking him up and wiping his face as well as mines)i got him and i went to the car and pulled out and went to jays house
jay:u ok
me:i got to do this now
jay:do what
me:look im sorry ok but i cant see u no more
jay:so what u gonna just sit here and end our relation ship now
me:yes ok im sorry but im merried and i dont want to use u for what im needing i know i was wrong but im sorry i got to go
he grabed me and i hit him and i ran on the pourch and he grabed em and started shaking me while yelling at me and mor tears came down my eyes but then he was pulled off em and i see nchezz and mike i looked down and walked off the pourch and chezz grabed me and pulled me in a hug
me:im sorry(crying hard)i should not have cheated i should of just waited and told u how i felt
chezz:it ok this time dont do it ever again of i will leave u and i mean that nina
me:im not
chezz:come on get in ima drive a mike take my car back to my place
so we left and then when we got home i seen they had some glass ont he floor i cleaned it up quick and then i put lil chess done _________________ My New BABY
that night i layed with him but he would ont tuch me so i rolled over and got up he did not know i was crying and up set so i went in the bathroom and just lean my head on the wall when i walkd out he was sitting up facing the door with his arms in his knees and then he put his head in his hands and waped his face i went in the kicten and i just sat down and looked out side in to the pretty site i seen and he came in and got him a cup and got him a drink and put ice in it and pured it in the cup
chezz:why your still up
me:i cant sleep
chezz:look at me
i walked out the other door and he stoped me the other way and grabed my face amd made me look at him
chezz:why u crying
me:cus u want tuch me like u use too chezz
he sighed and looked at me
chezz:how can i u fucked all this up(yelling)i loved u but u fucking pulled away i thought u was happy with me but your not to what i can see
me:(crying)chezz stop yelling at me
then i head the baby start crying i walked passed but he stoped me and went got him and he left the house i sat on the floor where i was standing and started to cry when i did fall asleep i was on the sofa and chezz was just coming back in with the baby it was abound 5 int eh morning i turned over and i felt some one left me and take me to the room and cover me then i turned over again when i woke up i went in the bathroom and took a shower when i got changed i walked out and then i brushed my hair and put it in a pony tail and then i went in the kicten and seen the baby eating with chezz i just went to the sink and started washing the dishes and then i put them up and then i cleand around the house while he layed back and hung out i with the baby we never spoke a word when we did mak eye contact it wouldnt last long when i stoped cleaning i went out side in the front and sat on the swing and i checked my data phone and it had that i was to do a vido shoot with Lp and i sighed i folded my leds as the shair moved fored and back then i seen jay car pull up he walked up and i moved back
jay:come on nina dont be sceard
me:go away please i told u i could not hurt my life any mor then i did
jay:but u can hurt me
he grabed me
me:chezz!!!!!
he ran out and jay walked back and chezz pushed him off the pourch and then i called the cops and they took him and i looked at chezz and he went in pissed i ran in
me:chezz:please stop tourching me like this im sorry i sad it lots of times i really am
chezz:nina just go ok are u know what me and lil chezz will leave
me:(crying)no chezz dont
he stoped me and i grabed him and he pushed em away and he got his tings and left he took the baby and every ting i layed on the sofa and cryed the day of the vido shoot i was not sleepign i was rushed to the hospital 2 twice i was pail so when i showed up they where gitting ready and he looked at me and seen how sick i looked then they took me and started to spray a tan tone on me ant then they did my hair and make up and i looked int he mirror and then i got up so i had to be in the snow so i had on snow boots and torn jeans my hair was streeked red and my jackit was thin so i was cold
dir:dont worry about the cold ok so they had chezz singing in one part of the cammere but there was a ice whall between us and mike was on the top then i had to sit in the snow where he was and he was more focused on the camers then me when i did finish the first part i got changed and then we had to wait i looked down and he looked at me and i felt his hand tuch my back and he pulled me in a hugg
me:i miss u chezz please come back home i need u and my son i cant go on like this iv been throught depression to manny times and i cant take it any more i been rushed to the hospital cus of me missing u i cant eat sleep nor work well i lost every thing i had and i cant take this any more(crying)chezz i love u
he looked at me and kissed my far head and rubbed my face and i closed my eyes and then i hugged him tight
chezz:ill see u tonight
he kissed me
that night
iw as at home and waiting i had the place clean for them and when i heard the door open he walked in holding my son i hugged my son and kissed his far head then chezz
me:o i missed yall
chezz:i missed u to most i sorry it just i was up set i could not give u that attion u needed and i noticed it as i was gone that by leaving u was not the way to do it
so it been 5 months me and him where close again we partyed a lot and my son lil chezz was gitting taller he tryed to talk but it coming in slow me and chezz just love watching him play the other day we took him to the park and watched him runn around right now i was bathing him and chezz came in
lil chezz:daddy
chezz:hey boy i see u gitting clean
he smiled and nodded
chezz:u know whats commign up
me:the did we was married
chezz:i know and this tiem we can get out there and do somthing
me:like what
chezz:go party get drunk do w/e happens after and then go swimming in our big lak in the back
me:spacking to that thing we need to get it closed in some
chezz:i know hun
me;i dont want the baby to get hurt there
chezz:ima call some on on that in the morning
me:putting a towal around lil chezz and taking him in the room)just u do that
so i got chezz dressed and then i put him to bed and tucked him then i went in the room and chezz was int eh showere and i got in with him
me:u knew i wanted a shower first
chezz:(poke his toung out)so
i kissed him and he slamed me on the showere glass wall and i felt him kiss my necka nd his hand slid down my back to the ass position then he lifted me on to him and all i can say was the water could not make up for the sweat we where making the next day i woke up and rolled over and i felt him frabed me quick and i was over thin air cus if it was not for him i would of hit the floor
chezz:come on(pulling me over him)
i just layed bck down cus i was tired
chezz:o so u gonna go to sleep on me i see
me:im sleepy damn chezz please let me sleep while the baby still out
he moved em off him and got up and i pulled the covers over me
me:thank u
he slamed the door and i pulled the covers off my head and he was standing their smilling so i throught a book at him and eh attacted em and i laughed
chezz:i love u
me:i dont love u right now
chezZ:fine ill leave
me:fine
he walked to the door and pouted and i got him back in and we had then _________________ My New BABY
i was at home in my new house it was smaller and chezz he was living ont he other sid of town cus we splited it was the day befor v day my son was going to school the buss took him and i was just going back in and i head the phone ring
me:hello
mike:hey did u get that chec yet
me:for what
mike:lil chess to go to school
me:o why chezz could not call me
mike:hes upset right now
me:o wow
mike:u dont sound very happy eather
me:the list time u tryed this it did not work mike dont try now
mike:come on u know yall need each other
me:the only reason we even talk alittle now is cus of our son ok
mike:come over and talk to him u got a check he need to give u also any way
me:look dont yall have work to do
mike:yeah that reminds me u got a video with us tommrow
me:ugh ok ill see u
so i hung up and then i got changed and then i went over to the house and seen mike playing the came
me:happy i showed up
mike:yeah well im out
me:what u talking about
he left and i walked in our old bed room and seen him laying down he was looking at the pic of us that was there
me:u wanted to see me
he looked at me and waved me over and i walked up and sat down on the other sid and turned my back to him
chezz:i got a check for u on the tabled in the kitchen
me:hmm
chezz:what u doing later today
me:picking up lil chezz from school
chezz:how about all us go out tonight just as friends and a family
me:i dont know
chezz:please
me:ok
i got up and went got the check for lil chezz and left
2:45
i went picked up lil chezz and he got int he car and i put him in the seat and then we left when i got to my house i got both of us cleand up then changed and i turled my hair stuch a rose in it and then fixed lil chezz tie and then i heard a knock on the door then i tihed my heals and then i picked up lil chezz and open the door and chester came in with his suit on and the was a big streach limo out side we all got in and i seen mike and his girl friend there and i gussed the others was there already so when we got to this place it was like and out door food place ti was nice so we got a table to our selfs and lil chezz got in a chair to lift him up some and i refused to look at chezz
chezz:u just gonna look away from me all day
i jsut kept looking at the huge water fall on the sid of us it was nice
chezz:nina
me:why your doing this now
chezz:doing what
me:asking me all the questions in the world why we here any way chezz u know ever time im with u we fight fuzz that happen to the happyness we had it just gone now
chezz:for get all that right now ok jsut focus on today this the family time right now
me:w/e
the water came and we ordered and then soon they took lil chezz to my moms cus he was sleep
chezz:u ok
me:i guess
he took my hand and pulled me up and took me all they way out from under the shade
me:what u doing it raining
chezz:shh just think on good things that went on between us
me:chezz
he shh me again and i jsut looked at him and he started to dance with me in the rain and soon i layed my head on his sholder
chezz:now is this hard
me:right now no but u know we cat be together
chess:thats why things are like this now
me:what u mean
chezz:when we are not together we get along better when were together we fight more
me:but we cat do this this way for ever
chezz:for now we can
he jsut kissed my farhead and that ight he took me home and then i got changed and then the next day i got ready cus we had a video shoot when i got there he was holding some girl it mad me feel hurt in side when he let her go they kissed and she left so we got ready for the video we where doing their song v day so when we was done i got my things quick and i went home when i got there my cell went off
me:hey
chezz:why u leave
i just hung up and then i went in the room and it rung again i picked up
mike:whats wrong with u
me:nothing why
mike:u just hung up on chezz he was azking for lil chezz to come over
me:ill bring him
so when i got to his houses i went in and seen that girl on the couch she looked at me like i was sick i looked around and seen our family pic still up and i was gonna tak them
chezz:hey
me:..........
i handed him lil chezz and his bag and i went out and he stoped me
chezz:whats wrong with u
me:what u think chezz(tears falling)im going home
when i went home i cryed my self to sleep 1 month later she was still around more right now i was taking lil chezz to the house again and when i got there i knocked and he open the door and i walked in and seen that she moved in
me:hey chezz i need my dishes cus i had a meeting tonight
chezz:ok ima get a box
so i got my dishes and then i went in the back room and seen our wedding stuff and i frosed i looked at the things i was sopput to tak with me when he came in he seen me looking at them
chezz:that was a wild day huh
me:yeah(smirk)very
so i took the rest of my sturr and then i left i ended up with a lot of boxes when i got home i un paxed them all then i cooked and then the manger came over with some group of people who video i was gonna be in next and they wher nice but the only thig was they was not from here so it was a spanish video
me:so whats the song about
jose:it about this girl who is missing with me and omar
me:ok so when is it
jose:next week
me:ok
there was a knock on my door and chezz and mike cam in
me:where is my son
chezz:with hallie
me:what u left him with that crazy bitch
he just sighed
so they came in the rome every one was in
manger:o so i see u still come around
chezz:yep
me:well i guess the video is set ill be ready
so they gave me my out fits i had to ware and then left
mike:so whats this bitch comment
me:nothing
mike:jalious(sp)
me:no cusif i wanted soemting i was jelious for ill get it
chezz:any ways i want to keep lil chezz this month
me:no i want to see my son pluss he dotn need to me with that crazy bitch
chezz(yelling now)look quit witht eh damn names ok thats my girlfriend i did not let any one disrespect u so dont do it to her
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